Its about 1 a.m in the morning, I'm having a terrible stomach ache but I refuse to do something about it, therefore, I'm here typing away.
Have you ever wondered how your friends value the friendship of both of you? They stand in an extremely important position in your heart, whatever they do could possibly make you or break you, you consider them your close friend and okay, you get the idea. And what about them? When you're down, sure, they'll ask you whats up, do they really care about how you feel? No. They're just curious, if you end up telling them whats up, they'll reply you with an "oh" , they don't really care, they're probably just asking for the sake of asking. Its too bad how we can't tell the difference nowadays, its all based on luck and I guess a little bit of your own attitude. If you're lucky enough to find such a good friend where they would genuinely be concerned about how you're feeling, they're a keeper. I guess for attitude well.. if you have a good one you would attract people like this.
I don't know. I can't say I've met tons of people that don't care about me in my life. I don't plan to sound like.. I don't know like I'm the shit or whatever but I know some people care about me.. at least I know my parents do, good enough. Okay well, I've never had a friend where I could tell everything and anything to them, I don't think I consider myself unlucky either, because I find it hard to spill everything on my mind to them. But honestly, I don't mind. I don't mind not having a friend that I can tell everything to, and even if I do, I wouldn't. I live by not trusting anyone fully, I'm not sure if its a bad thing. The world is evil. You don't know what's happening inside someone's mind. " Oh, she's my best friend forever yeah she won't betray me we're tight! " Familiar, no? Things that I'm saying right now isn't like, " oh she'll betray me by telling everyone that I'm crushing on that hot senior! " No, I'm not that shallow. Basically, I'm talking about deeper stuff, as deep as I can go that is. That's what she said.
I would think of myself as a pretty private person. I think people look at me as an open book. I am not an open book. What you see right now is only the front cover, I have a lot of things hidden under my cover, which I don't plan to let you flip the page anytime soon.
