So yes, it was the first day of school today. Got into the class I wanted. Not going to talk about how I feel about it since its gonna be considered cyberbullying/being bitchy/ talking behind people's back. Hahaha imagine if I actually wrote it down, some people terasa gila, then got drama. Hahaha please bitch. So I'll just complain to real life people. Oh well.
But, I really do dislike school. Especially this year. With PMR going on and stuff. Even on the first day, when the teachers come in to brief us about stuff, PMR is always on the list. PMR's fine, the expectations aren't. " I expect all of you to get A's. " Yes teacher, we are in a slightly better class, but no, that does not give you permission to expect so much from us. Just because we're a little bit more hardworking than others ( so they say ), doesn't mean we're capable of doing anything and everything. Personally, I don't think I deserve to be in the class I'm in right now. Everyone's hardworking, and I'm just there slacking around. Of course, I want to succeed, I want to get straight A-s too, but do I have the strength to push myself to study hard? I'm not entirely sure of it. So please, stop expecting, stop building the stress on us. You don't need to constantly remind us that we have PMR ahead of us. How in the world would we forget? If you think it scares us, of course it scares us, but do you think its a good thing? Scaring us doesn't necessarily mean that it'll motivate us to study more. People like me, would try to run away from the problem because you guys just constantly scare us. Yes, sometimes, I like being in the class I'm in currently. People in there are smart, and no, I'm not saying that I am. I clearly know where I stand. I'm not as good as them. The people in my class aren't just born smart, ( well maybe some of them are but that's not the point ) I know they thrive for their results, heck, some of them even started studying and are planning to study every single day till PMR. But I know I can't study everyday, even if I plan to, I know for a fact that I can't do it.
But after PMR, I am going to have fun and I don't fucking care what you say about what I do.
till next time, byee!
but honestly I don't want to come back and blog since everytime I blog, its about something unhappy and I'm only here to rant and let it all go.
