disclaimer : i did not write this .
They tell me give up, they tell me hold on. They tell me it’s not worth it, they tell me it’ll cost everything. They tell me try one more time, they tell me put the cards down. They tell me keep going, they tell me stop running. They tell me don’t cry, they tell me just let it out. They tell me everything’s going to be okay, they tell me it doesn’t look too bright. They tell me forget it, they tell me hold on tight. They tell me it’s a mistake, they tell me don’t regret it. They tell me forgive them, they tell me hate them. They tell me stop trying, they tell me don’t give up. They tell me move on, they tell me to stay put. They tell me stop hurting myself, they tell me go after him. And I’m telling myself let go.. let go of the pain.. the unnecessary torment .. But how can I when I obviously still love you like this. How can I forget you when I see you first within a crowd of hundreds. How can I move on when I was so close.. How can I stop trying when I want to be with you so badly.. I’m stressing myself out, making my mind run miles and miles in circles. I can’t make up my mind on which direction to take. Slowly I feel like I’m losing myself, piece by piece. I’m trying so hard for you to open your eyes, and see what love really is. To see who’s really right here for you. And it doesn’t help that I keep changing my mind every five seconds, confused on what to do. You make me so indecisive. So unsure. Should I stay, should I go? Pack my bags and leave? Stay up all night, with a cell in my hand, hoping I’d come to mind when you look for someone to call? Should I press ignore? Accept? You’re giving me nothing but mix signals. and you don’t even give a shit. Sometimes, I don’t even know why I bother.
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just so you know how i feel .
